Disgusting.
You used me,
You took what you wanted from me
You tossed me out like I was nothing
Disgusting.
Did that night mean nothing?
Nothing?
Nothing at all
You stripped me of integrity leaving me naked, alone, and frail
You didn’t care
I couldn’t wash your hands off me
Disgusting.
I only ever had your attention when we touched
That’s what I’m good for,
touch
I’m sorry I can’t be more interesting
I’m sorry I can’t be what you need
I’m sorry I’m not older and wiser, like you
Disgusting.
The memory of your hands
after that night still haunt me
I scrubbed and scrubbed
They’re still there.
There are now permanent marks on my body
Marks that only I can see
Marks that only I can feel
Marks that only matter to me
Disgusting.
All I wanted to do was make you feel loved
All you wanted to do was touch
I just wanted your love
You wanted my touch
I feel disgusting.
